I Just Want Some Peace

I don’t need to be happy,
I just don’t want to be so sad,
Everyday I try not to end it,
Everyday I struggle through.
I wish I could just disintegrate
Like ashes in a fire.
I have to stay for now.
I know I’m needed.
I know I’m wanted.
Why can’t I just be?
Why can’t I just die?
No emotion is better than utter depression.
I cry myself to sleep.
I cry myself awake.
There’s no stopping it.
Please let me go.
I feel suicidal all the time.
I stop for his sake.
I just want to go.
I just want some peace.